Hello all! I know it’s been well a long time since I’ve posted on here. I really want to start writing again. But lately I’ve been stuck in a rut and can’t seem to get out. I have lost all of my creativity. All of my energy and time has been on school and trying to find a job. School has been fine, I actually really enjoy the online course that I’m in. But trying to find a job in a specialized field when you live in a small town and you have very little experience is extremely difficult. It can drain you. Every day I wake up and go online to see if anyone has a posted a job. Then if someone has I rush to fill out an application then I take it the company and I wait and wait. I still have not found a job and it can be very discouraging even when everyone around you is saying ‘don’t get discouraged, God has something better for you just keep applying”. When no one is hiring you why would you want to keep trying? How are you supposed to not feel discouraged? How are you supposed to write when you are feeling discourage and all of the creativity is being drained out of you? I want this blog to be a place where I can share my life with you in hopes to not feel so alone. I also want this blog to be a fun place where we can talk about all of the things we enjoy. I want this blog to be a place free from judgement. But right now I feel like I have no inspiration. I don’t even know what to talk about right now. But I’m going to try. I want to start writing again and I will.
Since it’s Faith Friday I thought I would share my morning Devotions with you. I grew up in a Christian household. We always went to church Sunday morning, we still do. I am a 20 year old girl who is Christian. But I have been through tough times in my life that made me question my faith. As I’m sure we all have.
But I have recently hit a really low point in my life where I didn’t really want to be around anyone. I didn’t want to go outside. I stopped praying and reading my bible. I honestly don’t even know why. Nothing major happened recently. That was just how I felt. I knew part of the reason was my anxiety. But one day I decided to say no I’m not going to keep living like this, always being afraid, never wanting to leave my house. I NEEDED God and I knew I needed him. So I continually prayed to God and got back into my morning Devotions.
That has been the best decision I’ve ever made. As soon as I get up in the morning a make a little breakfast because I’m always starving when I wake up. Then I go back in my room get out my Devotions and my Bible and start praying. I now can’t wait to wake up and start my day with God.
Yes my anxiety is still there. But spending time with God first thing in the morning takes some of the anxious feeling about the day ahead away. I’m able to step out of the house not feeling as anxious knowing that God is always with me and will always take care of me. I do not need to be afraid.
The Devotions I have been reading are Devotional Journal for Every Day of the Year By Sarah Young Jesus Calling- ENJOYING PEACE in HIS PRESENCE.
The second one is by Joyce Meyer Starting Your day right- Devotions for Each Morning of the Year
Proverbs 3:5 says “Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding.”