Hello all! I know it’s been well a long time since I’ve posted on here. I really want to start writing again. But lately I’ve been stuck in a rut and can’t seem to get out. I have lost all of my creativity. All of my energy and time has been on school and trying to find a job. School has been fine, I actually really enjoy the online course that I’m in. But trying to find a job in a specialized field when you live in a small town and you have very little experience is extremely difficult. It can drain you. Every day I wake up and go online to see if anyone has a posted a job. Then if someone has I rush to fill out an application then I take it the company and I wait and wait. I still have not found a job and it can be very discouraging even when everyone around you is saying ‘don’t get discouraged, God has something better for you just keep applying”. When no one is hiring you why would you want to keep trying? How are you supposed to not feel discouraged? How are you supposed to write when you are feeling discourage and all of the creativity is being drained out of you? I want this blog to be a place where I can share my life with you in hopes to not feel so alone. I also want this blog to be a fun place where we can talk about all of the things we enjoy. I want this blog to be a place free from judgement. But right now I feel like I have no inspiration. I don’t even know what to talk about right now. But I’m going to try. I want to start writing again and I will.
Hello everyone! I hope you all had a great weekend. Did you do anything exciting this weekend? I would love to hear what you did in the comments. Me? Well I didn’t do much, we went to the “big city” near me. But other then that I didn’t do much. But I did have a great Monday and Tuesday. I got to play with puppies when I went to volunteer. That always makes my day.
But lets get started on why I stopped going to Community College. Let me just say that college is great. Even Community College is awesome if you’re not ready for University. I went to a Community College for a year and majored in Business. But I soon realized that college wasn’t for me. My dad wanted me to major in Business because he thought it would help me in the career I wanted to work in. Which was helping animals in any way I can. I did agree that it would probably help me in my career.
But I was not enjoying college at all. My anxiety got the best of me and I hated attending class. I would always sit in the back corner hoping no one would talk to me and that the instructor would not call on me. I was like that all throughout high school and I was hoping by moving to a different state and not knowing anyone at college would help my anxiety.
Boy was I so wrong. If it did anything at all it made my anxiety worse. I never wanted to leave the house. When I got home my parents could tell something wasn’t right. So we decided that I would take a year off school to focus on my health. Which we did but it went a little…over a year. I did everything I could to not have to go back to college. I finally convinced my parents to allow me to go to an online school for something that I would really enjoy.
So that’s exactly what I’m doing. This has been the first time I actually can’t wait to start school. Because this time it’s for something I’m passionate about and that I absolutely love. Plus it’s online so I don’t have to go to class with a bunch of random people I don’t know. But I still get social interaction because my classes will require some form of it online.
Don’t get me wrong, I think college is awesome. I think if it’s something you want to do then do it and do let anyone tell you that you won’t make it. Because you can absolutely make it. But for someone who has major social anxiety..college just isn’t the best.
I hope you enjoyed my college experience. Please leave any college experiences that you have in the comments. I would love to hear your stories. I also have a set schedule now. So I will post every Tuesday, Thursday and Saturday at 5pm.
So I started volunteering at my local Humane Society a couple of months ago and I absolutely LOVE it. It makes me get out of the house, which can be hard for someone that has anxiety. But not only that it changes my mood almost instantly when I get there. The animals get so happy when they see you and that makes me happy.
How did I get into volunteering? Well I NEEDED something that would get me out of the house. My home is my comfort zone and my anxiety made it so hard to go out and do things(especially by myself). But being stuck at home by myself was not good for my health either. Volunteering was a huge step for me because it meant that I would have to get in my car and drive to some where by myself. But my whole life I knew what my passion was…animals and helping them. So my dad suggested that I go to a shelters volunteer orientation and just see, I said ok.
I knew I wanted to help animals but I also knew that volunteering at an Animal Shelter could be really hard and that I would want to take all of the animals home. But actually it really isn’t that bad. If I’m not in a great mood that day but I decided to go volunteer when I come out my mood is completely changed. I’m in such a great mood when I leave because I know that I made the animals I have played with a little more comfortable and happy. They really do make my day and I think we make their day a little better too.
It is though very hard to not get attached to the animals you play with. And it is so hard leaving them at the end of the day and you never know if they will be there the next day because they could get adopted by then. Which is amazing for them! I always smile when I go on Facebook and see the dog that I’ve been hanging out with going to a new home.
I will never forget the first dog I got to hang out with on my first day (and for a couple of weeks after). She was a little Chihuahua named Sierra. She was so sweet and loving and yes it was hard when I saw that she got adopted because we bonded so much. But there was also so much joy in my heart for her knowing that she was going to a new home who will love her so much and take good care of her.
I now volunteer at not only my local Humane Society but also at my local Animal Shelter. I just loved the feeling I got when I knew that I gave the animals joy and some peace of mind that I wanted to help more animals. So I would totally recommend anyone to volunteer. But volunteer some where that has the same passion as you. It doesn’t have to be at your local shelter. Anywhere that makes you happy and change your mood when you leave will be awesome.
I hope you have enjoyed reading my volunteering journey. Volunteering has truly changed me for the better. Please comment if you volunteer anywhere or if you want to start volunteering. I would love to hear your stories.