Hello all! I know it’s been well a long time since I’ve posted on here. I really want to start writing again. But lately I’ve been stuck in a rut and can’t seem to get out. I have lost all of my creativity. All of my energy and time has been on school and trying to find a job. School has been fine, I actually really enjoy the online course that I’m in. But trying to find a job in a specialized field when you live in a small town and you have very little experience is extremely difficult. It can drain you. Every day I wake up and go online to see if anyone has a posted a job. Then if someone has I rush to fill out an application then I take it the company and I wait and wait. I still have not found a job and it can be very discouraging even when everyone around you is saying ‘don’t get discouraged, God has something better for you just keep applying”. When no one is hiring you why would you want to keep trying? How are you supposed to not feel discouraged? How are you supposed to write when you are feeling discourage and all of the creativity is being drained out of you? I want this blog to be a place where I can share my life with you in hopes to not feel so alone. I also want this blog to be a fun place where we can talk about all of the things we enjoy. I want this blog to be a place free from judgement. But right now I feel like I have no inspiration. I don’t even know what to talk about right now. But I’m going to try. I want to start writing again and I will.
Hello everyone! I hope you all had a great weekend. Did you do anything exciting this weekend? I would love to hear what you did in the comments. Me? Well I didn’t do much, we went to the “big city” near me. But other then that I didn’t do much. But I did have a great Monday and Tuesday. I got to play with puppies when I went to volunteer. That always makes my day.
But lets get started on why I stopped going to Community College. Let me just say that college is great. Even Community College is awesome if you’re not ready for University. I went to a Community College for a year and majored in Business. But I soon realized that college wasn’t for me. My dad wanted me to major in Business because he thought it would help me in the career I wanted to work in. Which was helping animals in any way I can. I did agree that it would probably help me in my career.
But I was not enjoying college at all. My anxiety got the best of me and I hated attending class. I would always sit in the back corner hoping no one would talk to me and that the instructor would not call on me. I was like that all throughout high school and I was hoping by moving to a different state and not knowing anyone at college would help my anxiety.
Boy was I so wrong. If it did anything at all it made my anxiety worse. I never wanted to leave the house. When I got home my parents could tell something wasn’t right. So we decided that I would take a year off school to focus on my health. Which we did but it went a little…over a year. I did everything I could to not have to go back to college. I finally convinced my parents to allow me to go to an online school for something that I would really enjoy.
So that’s exactly what I’m doing. This has been the first time I actually can’t wait to start school. Because this time it’s for something I’m passionate about and that I absolutely love. Plus it’s online so I don’t have to go to class with a bunch of random people I don’t know. But I still get social interaction because my classes will require some form of it online.
Don’t get me wrong, I think college is awesome. I think if it’s something you want to do then do it and do let anyone tell you that you won’t make it. Because you can absolutely make it. But for someone who has major social anxiety..college just isn’t the best.
I hope you enjoyed my college experience. Please leave any college experiences that you have in the comments. I would love to hear your stories. I also have a set schedule now. So I will post every Tuesday, Thursday and Saturday at 5pm.